end of the day

So I got alot done today. Took everything off the walls and started throwing out the stuff I have collected over the past three years that I said I was going to go through. The boys played outside all day and have just gone down to bed. Steve is playing video games and I am getting ready to start on my project that is due on Wednesday. Steve was told today that he has to leave on Thursday not Friday like we planned so one less day with the family. Such is the Army way.
Brittani started to clean out her room and get rid of alot of stuff. I found a really cute house in Florida and emailed about it. We have to be sure that they will allow a big dog. Steve wants to give Dude away but Steven would be sooo upset. I just can't do that.
I had a talk with Cameron today and he said that he likes living with us and he loves me. I said even when I get mad and yell and he said yes that he wants to go with us. I didn't ask that but ok. His dad has not seen him since last Wednesday and I am not going to try and get him to be involved anymore. He has to show some initiative or prove that he wants to reunite with him. I have tried and tried. It is really sad because he doesn't even ask about his dad anymore. How can people be like that? He went on a trip to Maui with his new girlfriend for the four day weekend. It must be nice. If we want to go somewhere like that we have to plan and pay for his son to go. He is free as a bird. Ok enough. Off to work on school work!

A new week

Even though it is a holiday, it is a new week. I am trying to start out on a positive note. I read about other people's problems and such and I know that I should not complain about my life. But as I sit here listening to the two boys scream and fight and throw stuff, I wonder how people cope. There is just so much uncertainty in our life right now that it consumes my thoughts all day. I have a huge project due on Wednesday and have to present it by myself ~ nerves!! I took an exam last night and got mad at myself for getting 37 out of 40. That is not bad but I feel I should have gotten them all right.
I guess I am just being hard on myself these days. Steve leaves on Friday for 7 weeks and I don't want to be alone again. But it always works out. Thanks to the good Lord! Maybe I need to spend a little extra time with HIM these days. Maybe I should have done a little more praying before taking on a foster child when our life was already crazy. But I will make it through like always. I want to get all the negative stuff out now, this morning, so that the week can start fresh! I have goals while Steve is gone. I am going to start a diet and walking again. I am going to get my scuba certification while he is gone to surprise him. He has been pushing me to do it so I am going to do it during spring break week. And I want to keep my sanity and not pull out my hair!
So, blog world, today will be the last of the complaining. I am going to think positive thoughts and move on. I don't think I won't have the occasional bad day, but I have to start thinking positive before I even get out of bed so that I can be a better person for my family.
Movin on!