Even though it is a holiday, it is a new week. I am trying to start out on a positive note. I read about other people's problems and such and I know that I should not complain about my life. But as I sit here listening to the two boys scream and fight and throw stuff, I wonder how people cope. There is just so much uncertainty in our life right now that it consumes my thoughts all day. I have a huge project due on Wednesday and have to present it by myself ~ nerves!! I took an exam last night and got mad at myself for getting 37 out of 40. That is not bad but I feel I should have gotten them all right.
I guess I am just being hard on myself these days. Steve leaves on Friday for 7 weeks and I don't want to be alone again. But it always works out. Thanks to the good Lord! Maybe I need to spend a little extra time with HIM these days. Maybe I should have done a little more praying before taking on a foster child when our life was already crazy. But I will make it through like always. I want to get all the negative stuff out now, this morning, so that the week can start fresh! I have goals while Steve is gone. I am going to start a diet and walking again. I am going to get my scuba certification while he is gone to surprise him. He has been pushing me to do it so I am going to do it during spring break week. And I want to keep my sanity and not pull out my hair!
So, blog world, today will be the last of the complaining. I am going to think positive thoughts and move on. I don't think I won't have the occasional bad day, but I have to start thinking positive before I even get out of bed so that I can be a better person for my family.
Movin on!
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